Suicide Youth

It was said that it was written in the stars, who we are, but
That's not why we do it.

Why we string ourselves up like spiders from a
Web, like Ariadne on a ledge because you know
They say that's where we all end up.

When the summer dropped in rain
You let us know it was all the same
'Cause no-one likes decembers when they're coming round again,
The snowbanks buried beneath the wood
The fireplace burning like scarecrows should
And I found a place I called home in your heart.

Little did I show you
(Did I never show you?)
When the veins ran blue and stopped too soon
Buried in pillows and forgotten tunes
And they said, Pearl Grey and Slightly White
And ivory hint escaping the night.

Sorry to bring you back to it, they were describing the
medication that she choked on
And you with your cauldron wouldn't have a word
You spat and you sang just to make sure we heard
But no-one was listening when you cast them down,
No-one wanted to hear the secrets you exposed.

They talk of stones and they talk of sticks,
Your words that kill and candle wicks
But that wasn't what killed her, it wasn't even me
(there wasn't a way out, society said) and now
You've cast the London red.
I keep a vigil for the words I've read.

Found it in laughter and bookshops and tears
Pages on rafters and long-forgot fears.